moulding

well ...went to my grandma funeral everyday ..

yest was the last nite...

i was rather sad la..afterall mii grandma ma..

yest mii , my cousin n aunt stay up to guard..

today morning 5 i cmi.. went home rest..

go back at 10 ....

after some ritual.. mii & relative all stay inside... people pay respect to mii grandma..

there two big head doll.. sing a veri old song.. my grandma use to sing...

my aunt all were agitatied by it...and tears all flow out...

even mine i cnt control it...

is just starting of my nightmare....

when we were going off.. i cn assure all of eyes were red...

in the bus i slp but my mind keep appearing my dad tht time when it is going in...

it really torturing ...i feel like i went a trip to hell...

specially when i m at the service hall........using the same old hall..

viewing also same hall....

when its moving inward i really cried out le.............

miss my grandma ..

when i was out ...totally piss off....

all negative tot comes to mii..

don understand y god remove my loves one from mii....

jie lq said to mii ..

god loves mii , seek comfort from him..

which kinda wake mii up..

he mould mii thru all tis b a btr person..

afterall thhings i m tired ..

may god strengthen mii....

fri blood donation who is free??

GOD IS ALWAY MY FIRST PRIORTY TIS WILL NV CHANGE

i wanna grew stronger in christ every single day !